There will be no wasting time now. Holy shit! Chemo starts Monday morning at 9:00 am. I am realizing there are so many phases in this battle. Each one has so many unknowns and anxieties associated with it. Seems like I finally get used to something and the next step is knocking at the door, kind of like a stalker. I think we are attacking the real unknown pretty hard. Three chemo drugs (TAC) at a time, every three weeks for a total of six weeks. Total will be 18 weeks if all goes as planned. Dr. Wendt says hair falls out at two weeks and four days. I guess I'll find that out soon enough. Once again, it is hard to separate the vanity from the treatment. I have a hard time picturing myself bald. What a frightful sight with scars, unfinished breasts and no hair!! Unfortunately, it is real and happening. I have looked at some wigs online, no scarves yet but probably will soon. Once again as I read some other women's stories I am amazed how they handle things so calmly. I guess it is just facing the facts and moving forward. I think of it like swimming through mud! I was given a couple prescriptions to start before chemo, anti-nausea and some sort of steroid to prevent allergic reaction. It is weird to take things for something that doesn't feel real. I feel pretty nervous about all of this, reading too much and worried about side effects. Hopefully I will get some sleep and get through this without too many problems I have read about. Thanks again for all the encouragement and love! ♥♥♥
Keeping The Vanity in Check!!