Saturday, December 31, 2011

Happy New Year!!!

The year 2011 will be one I will remember, but wish I could forget.  Scars and Worries will forever be a reminder and part of my future life.  Although this whole "cancer" thing has been quite unpleasant, it has exposed to me what fabulous family and friends I do have.  So many people have gone so far out of their way to help me, not only by bringing me food and gifts, but by letting me know they are there for me.  I thank you all so much for all you have done!
I have my last chemo treatment on Tuesday.  I am thankful for that.  I have definitely been worn down by all this, both physically and emotionally.  I am just tired. I am not sure I feel the finality that people around me feel. As this round of chemo ends, another part of treatment begins.  After all the "treatments and procedures" are done I will move on with  life.  I hope I can be one of those "positive " people that believe they won the fight.  I think that is easier said than done.  I am going to work really hard to think positive and surround myself with people that do the same.
I met with radiologist oncologist last week.  He is very knowledgeable and confident.  So, I am set to begin in later January.  Average is 33 times, so about 6 weeks.  They have some mathematical formulas to figure out exactly how many and how much radiation to give.  Anyway I go back on Friday the 13 to have another CAT scan and  "dry run" and get some tiny tattoos for the radiation beam.  The tattoos are little dots, I am going to ask for little hearts or something more fun.  They will most likely say no, but worth asking!! 
I will go see plastic surgeon before and have right side (non radiated side) get deflated by 20%.  Not too bad and just until radiation is finished.  I also found out I have to wait 6 months before the "exchange" surgery. (That is exchanging the expanding implants for real fake ones).  So I will have big hard ones for a while!  Something to look forward to, haha!!
Here's to a Happy and Healthy New Year!  Thanks again for all the positive thoughts and love sent my way!
Love Sara ♥♥♥

Monday, December 12, 2011

High Five???

Looks like I must have become tired of this blog.  Really just not much new to report.  Treatment #4 was similar to previous treatments although the fatigue really lasted almost entire time.  I actually became short of breath cleaning out the fridge, that is sad :(.  I am sick and tired of being sick and tired.  Hopefully when this chemo is finished I will return to normal (or what was normal for me).                                                                                                                                                                 I finally manged to make it to one of Vance's basketball games.  I saw quite a few people there and had many nice conversations, although it feels like a blur!  So glad to be there though.  I worked hard (or obsessed as Bruce would say) to get as much Christmas stuff done before today.  I try to tell myself whatever gets done is fine, but easier said than done. Clark is graduating on Friday night, which is usually worst side effect day so I am going to do my best to make it. 
I had number five today.  Went to lunch with Sharlene after we had a tour of downtown Phoenix thanks to my navigation!  Finished up some errands and then it hit me,  That raw stomach..... so I fixed up my little area with laptop, water, remote and pills all in a line!  So, I will most likely be here for at least the week arrrgggg.
Thanks again for the continuing support, prayers and love!  Hope to be back soon!
Sara ♥♥♥