Not Quite a Total Commitment.

I think I am starting to get used to this ongoing saga.  I find it much easier to talk about and even imagine certain outcomes without feeling complete panic.  I have more answers to many of the unknown and am not waiting for phone calls every day.   I had a "round table secret vote" the other night with some girlfriends.  Everyone wrote a #1 or #2 on a paper (meaning uni or bilateral).  The results were split 50/50!!  I laughed because that is exactly how I feel about the question.  Friday morning I called my surgeons office and said I had decided to just do the left side.  Then the nurse said good and she just really wanted me to make a decision.  Then she went on to tell me I was last surgery of day and if I changed my mind there would still be time.  So I really didn't have to totally commit yet.  Well I see plastic surgeon on the 11th and I think that visit will honestly be the deciding factor.  We are going to Dana Point for the week and I am going to try to relax.  Nice to get out of this heat too.
Thanks for thoughts, prayers and love! ♥